When Hicks Have Pitchforks.
Recently I was lectured by somebody who talks a lot about grace. This somebody has many times in the past employed a small coup (1 person), not a necessarily intelligent person, as a platform in which to establish authority when it comes to their social ambition. Knowing folks that do this kind of thing from my own past, I didn’t hesitate to assess. I was initially of the impression that this guy, a guy who has driven off a good number of people from this community in the past, actually had a heart.
I was of the impression the so-called grace he speaks of was a real attribute that he himself actually possessed and not just a sanctimonious platitude he employs in the process of manipulating others for his own gain. The man decided I was harmful to his worldview (he’s a deeply religious Christian conservative, anti-choice, hates gays (as do 2 of his cohorts). Because I am everything that isn’t what he is; I’m therefore toxic in general. Nevermind that he is not the only person who is conservative that I (previously in his instance) rank among my good friends. Some just don’t have the mental fortitude to get past their own bias, politically, religiously or otherwise. Whereas I can, I strive to find common ground and understand others, the grace he spoke of only extended to the people who massage his existence in a comfortable way. He was only willing to be compassionate to somebody he didn’t feel challenged or threatened by. He was only willing to extend an olive branch to somebody as far-right as himself. Conversely, he was only willing to accept one from the same. He’s a fraud, posturing to be as many things he simply lacks the capacity to ever be.
A few months go by. I’ve been spending time in this community attempting to find a way to make things work when some deeply menacing individual arrives and starts ingratiating himself upon people with money. Furthermore, one of the newer members of this community fires off at me for not making this deeply harmful maniac feel more comfortable. I had questioned where it came from that I was even approached until it occurred to me this shit stain was probably firing PM’s off at everyone and keeping the drama real behind the scenes, all the while I’m 100% ignoring him. The way in which all of this went down is absurd as I did not talk to this person – I just ignored them. Generally speaking, when somebody sends PM’s about you behind your back and says it’s possible you’re not faithful behind your partners back – you never speak to them again… you eradicate them from your life forever. You “let it go” by not ever being involved with them again. But it doesn’t end there.
This one man single-handedly caused a rift by the money he throws at people. The person who had been manipulated into believing I was even partiality responsible for not being tipped anymore then starts the exact same rift with others, because 2 days prior, he said I was getting in the way of him being able to feed his child. He said he’d be grimy if he had to be, and boy, was he fucking grimy. The 3 people I expected to get involved did so immediately, the others very honestly can’t do anything about it.
The take-home lesson here is grown ass men need to grow the fuck up and not take manipulative fuckwits with financial incentive into account. I have every reason to believe 2 of these hicks are going to be sliding into other community DM’s to attempt to play the same social castration and the ostracising game they’ve played for the past year now. Whereas the people in the past weren’t prepared, I’m locked and fucking loaded. My evidence is absolute. I don’t want to do anything with it, I just have it. If all this is the end, I know it’s the end being the better person – for standing up against foul people who harass and isolate others while convincing themselves they’re good humans.
The only person owed an apology here is the person who owns the community and a few of the people who’ve had to be dragged into this. Me? I can wear it. I’m not kept alive by 3 people who find even a modicum of value in me.
Bullies don’t fly by me. I’ll call you out, and that is my right. Don’t bully people, I won’t invite you to reconcile with being a trash human who needs to grow up. Currying numbers to garner opinion won’t work here. I’ll be back sharp, surgical and ready for whatever. I anticipate what’s next. Meanwhile, I’m going back to my lovely partner,
Netflix seems apt.